Learning to dance in the rain

Life, quite a journey!

Full of surprises, good and bad, but all which makes us evolve.

Since my last article, while I dared to share my blog with you and open my privacy to you, I have not written anything more. I don't know if it intimidates me now to realize that so many people are going to read me. Or the pressure of feeling that I have to continue to feed this blog. But I allowed myself to take this break, to listen to my needs.

I must say that I have been in a huge phase of anger for several days. So much so that I felt like my body must contain a hurricane. I felt myself boiling, vibrating from within. As if it weren't enough to have to deal with the loss of my son, life sends me other pitfalls in my path. While I was catching my breath a little at the beginning of the week, and the sadness was taking back its place, yet another event that came to stir up my anger.

I'm starting to feel like I can't take any more, it's just too much.

I came across this sentence a very long time ago, in a difficult moment: Learning to dance in the rain. I decided to put it back in my head. It's really not easy every day but it's the best way to face challenges for me.

Following my delivery, I began a process of perineal rehabilitation. Too many women experience recurring problems following childbirth and I am firmly determined to do what it takes to avoid being stuck with this in the long term. I started following Mélanie Claveau, also known as La physio pas gênée (means Unembarrassed physiotherapist. All her content is in french though but she is really amazing if you understand a little). She was offering a lot of free content this week for an event she named I Love My Body. When I was really not well on Wednesday evening, even my boyfriend did not know how to comfort me, I got up Thursday morning with the intention of focusing on something other than my problems and I started listening to her videos on Facebook. It made me feel so good!!

I felt that I was finally focusing on myself, my well-being, deeply. I learned so many things about my body and it gave me back a strength that I felt lost, jostled by events and people in serious lack of empathy who crossed my path lately.

She is so generous, it's amazing the amount of informations she offers for free. Especially since I realized that it really does not only concern pregnant women or those who have just had a baby. Many things other than childbirth can cause pelvic discomfort, such as posture, breathing, or severe coughing fits, for example. I so wish I had known that before! In fact, women are unfortunately very poorly educated on this whole aspect and I love that she works very hard to empower woman this way.

It helped me so much this week that I wanted to share it with you. Maybe it might help other people.

Let's also say that the theme of her event, I love my body, was rather timely for me. To see my body so weakened, marked and transformed following my pregnancy and my childbirth, is quite hard. Especially since I don't have my beautiful Alexandre to remind me on a daily basis how much it was all worth…

We always say that time does its work, but let's say that I provoke things and continue to work very hard every day to get better, in my head, my heart and my body.

As long as it continues to rain..!